According to my tracker, it has been 40 days since I last drank alcohol. It is amazing to think how impossible this would have seemed 2 months ago. I went from planning and thinking about what and when I was going to drink to not even thinking about it. Most of the time.

I am learning to recognize my triggers. I am learning to recognize the HALT (am I hungry, angry, lonely or tired.)

This “New Normal” has changed my workplace as a healthcare provider, possibly forever. There are new obstacles at work in addition to the ones I already faced. My kids are facing challenges with virtual learning that I can’t even begin to navigate. Drinking won’t change these things.

I came accross this blog post today. I felt understood. I hope this blog makes someone else feel understood.

40 days seems like a long time. 40 good mornings, 40 better nights of sleep. 40 full meals at dinner instead of drinking early and often.